My second record .....
It took me a while to write my second record. I have had big plans. Write frequently in my diary. But why??
I just do not believe in it. I know the darksides of internet. Which information is right and which information is just not right. You can hide behind masks, hidden masks, so you can write, give advices, make suggestions, make proposals. For what????
It is simple, I am a woman, 39 years young. Alone, after a failure in life, a wrong choice, mistake???? Yes, you can say so. And now .......
Looking for new happiness in life, Younger or older, energitic or lazy, intelligent or smart, rich or poor. It does not matter, I just wait and see who will come along. And you know what? Many will come along. They simply believe me. They will simply believe my story of my life. And why?? Because they not know me, they not know who I am, they not know what I feel, they not know my emotions. I can tell all I want. I can put pictures of myselve in my blog. They will love me, all will love me, why ????? Because they do not know me.
I am blond, but not stupid, ha, ha. I know I am not stupid because many tell me. So, let's go on, let's join the shit of internet and play the game. Reply to me, say what you want, it does not matter. My real identity will never been known.
And that is why I simply do not like this.
But, it is a market, it is a way of making money. It is Internet, and internet makes all possible. Even the impossible will be possible.
However, when you know the person who writes the blog, then it is different. Because then you cannot lie, you cannot hide between a mask, a hidden mask. Then you can only write the truth. So for many of you who write in this diary I say: Go to hell, I do not care about your opinion, I do not care about your advices, be a man, be a woman, be ugly, be pretty, be young, be old, be rich, be poor, be who ever you want to be. REALLY, I DO NOT CARE !!!!!
Few I know, one of them closed their blog for me, and this person is right. This person is honest, this person tells me that he /she shares his / her deepest emotions, feelings, desires on the blog, and I can understand this person. Because reading this information and knowing the thoughts, it makes you vulnerable, and nobody wants to be vulnerable.
And then there is another person I know. And this person I know really well now. She (yes, it is girl) writes all she wants in her blog and I can read it. And I want to read it. because................
I am 44 years old, I am a man and I am in love. Yes, it's funny. In the beginning of this record I was a woman, but now I am a man. In the beginning I was 39, now I am 44. Ha, Ha, which one is true??????
So, to all of you out there (except the 2 persons I know). Reply, ask, I will give you alla snwers you want to hear, it is simple. maybe I am a boy, 25 years old, ha, ha, maybe I am a woman, 76 years old. Try me, but remember, I always say: INIAIS (It Never Is At It Seems).
Except for those 2 persons who know who I am. they can trust me, and they will only read the truth in this blog.
Love you all, out there. But 1 in particular, a special one...........She knows.........Because I am 44 years old, and I am in love, and I believe in this love.........and she knows it................